December 30, 2009

This morning has been a great reminder of why I am happy to be alive.. I am thankful for the things that I have and the people in my life.. I can choose what I want to do with my day whether it's sitting on the couch and watching some t.v or clean my house again for the fifth time this week.. New Year's Eve is upon us and I want to make some odd changes this year.. I want to be ok with myself and strife to be a great friend like all of my ladies that I have in my life.. I am going to try and be more supportive of my husband's goals and try to fully understand why he wants to reach them.

I guess I should scratch the try and say I WILL do all these things.. Enough for today I have too much on my mind and I can't type that fast..

December 29, 2009

I woke up this morning with a sense of renewed faith in myself, little did I know what was in store for me...

I am mother of two beautiful children and they keep me extremely busy. I love them and they love me should be simple right? Nothing is as simple as it may seem.. They have fought for hours on end about the smallest things.. I am upset at the fact they don't see the best this world has to offer yet.. Keep in mind my children are 3 and 18 months.. I am also upset at myself for allowing myself to get so emotional with the smallest things.. Life is way too short so why don't they just get along? I am the only child but I have learned through out the years that things go a lot smoother if you share..

This is a minimal problem that should be easily solved but I have yet to figure out how.

On to another subject for the day, a dear friend to me lost a loved one last night in a car accident. She seems to be dealing with it OK, if it were I I would be losing my mind.. I would give anything to have the strength and courage and self control that she has. I try every day to make things as smooth as possible but always seem to come out a mess.. How do we grieve the "right" way? How can anyone move forward knowing that a life was taken too soon.. I am not one for saying everything happens for a reason. There should be no reason at all for an 17 year old child leaving this world.. They have so much to offer their lives haven't even begun yet. I guess I will always want to know the "what if " and I will never get them.. This is where I will end my thoughts today.. Happy Blogging to all.